Friday, June 18, 2010

Memories of Rain



I just had a memory. I remember it was grade five or six. It was a memory of rain and the long bus ride home. I loved bus rides homes, except when I failed quizzes or tests. Long bus rides give you time to think about life and the quintessential passing of time. Traffic was so bad sometimes, it would take 3 to four hours to get home, especially along Edsa road which is the main roadway from my former school in Mandaluyong City towards home in Makati. Memories of me and Snap annoying the rest of the people on the bus because we would sing all the dragon ball and dragon ball z songs. If you contemplate life long enough, you realize that you should always hold onto a good memory, a thought from the past, because it is always alive. I can never understand how people take time and life for granted. Ya, there are bad memories as well, but you usually assign so much value to the good ones that sometimes, just for the sake those ones, the bad ones just become an afterthought. If anyone is wondering, the picture on the top left is my school gym. It looks like a flying saucer right? LOL, yeah, well before they put that red track, I remember it used to be mostly all sand. I have so many memories from that place, as I'm sure all of you reading this have memories from the schools you're from. This is where I went to elementary and high school starting at grade two. Before that, I studied in the U.S. for two years. So my first language is English.

Let me just say that transferring halfway across the world to study can be quite stressful and traumatizing. Right now, I don't regret it for the world. It's funny; It's like I have two cultures inside of me and I can easily switch between each one when I feel like it. The next pic was one of previous high school reunions which I missed, "dang it!" as my friend Eric would say. Those guys are my former classmates during various years and best friends. It's an awesome school in so many respects and the origin of so many nostalgic thoughts. The only sad thing about being a guy going to this school was that it wasn't co-ed, meaning no girls, just a bunch of testosterone filled guys. There were always rumors that they would integrate sooner or later, but to no avail. Sometimes, since Catholicism in the Philippines tends to get wrapped up in politics, we were sometimes roped into rally or two against a presidential policy or political agenda from time to time. Fun times, we would stand right outside the school and they were like "Alright kids, make as much noise as you can and yell no to the charter change" (constitutional change) and then the t.v. news people would come and we would all try to get videoed to say that we were on t.v. If there was a social or political topic that needed to be addressed, the brothers who ran our school would wear black to make a point.

 Do you know there is a green river in the Philippines? Sometimes it's brown, but it changes colors depending on weather conditions. Do you want to know why we have a different colored river. Well, some things better remain a secret. Ok, that was random. Anyway, back to memories. Did I mention that there were no girls at my school. Many of us like to say that it was an injustice against us since we never learned how to deal with such situations regarding the opposite gender properly and so we suffered for it. They had these events, like once a year were we would go to a girls school for a day to learn how to "interact" with them. It didn't do a thing for many of us. But then again, we tend not to take these things for granted. I loved going to La Salle Green Hills because I learned so much about my culture, my history, that it has become a part of who I am today. I am a better person because of the people I've met and teachers who've taught me. They have made a difference in my life and I have a personal few who really had an impact. And so for the memories, I would like to make a toast dear Lasallistas. Let us carry the memories and what we've learned with us always, in this life, and the next. God bless.

Thursday, June 10, 2010

Hitting the curb


I was making a delivery and I hit the curb. It was only later that I learned about my inflated tire. I was making runs as a delivery driver for the sandwich franchise that I recently got a job at. It was the night shift and the latest I've worked so far. As I was about to deliver some bread, i felt the side of my car limp and I knew my tire was dead. I'm lucky I had a couple of friends who came and lent with my dillema. It's one of those days when you appreciate all the help you can find. I had to wait for Eric to drop off the stuff I left in his car after borrowing a spare tire from Mohammed. Who knows why I'm not a good driver.

Ok, I was distracted by the gps, so blame the machine for making me multi-task while delivering to a fire department. They should make them faster and much more convenient to operate because I don't want to leave that thing in my car. It has a tendency of getting stolen as people get more desperate to make a quick buck or two. It can't be helped I guess, it's the sign of the times. But my personal thought is, well, what can you do? You suck at driving but at least you're making a living. Might as well not feel bad about the what comes your way in life, besides knowing the fact that you only have one of them anyway, and that you might as well be content with what you have. To be honest, I don't feel that bad that I got a flat tire. I should, but that won't certainly change anything. So I drove my car home on a borrowed spare and called Eric cause he still had my stuff in his car.

As I waited, I noticed whole bunches of people going from here to there towards various parties in the area. So I just leaned back and looked up. And once again, I saw the immensity of the night sky with the stars all studding the heavens, and I thought "Why aren't any of these other people looking up? It's such a beautiful night and people should be talking to each other outside with their heads tilted in an upward direction. Whenever you look at something as immense as the heavens, no matter what time of the day it is, it always captures you as something immense and endless, that there is more to existence than worrying about a flat tire. There's meaning in the expanse, and it says to you
 
"I am endless and infinite, and beautiful. I have been here longer than you have existed and I will continue to exist even after you have passed. You can comprehend me because a part of you was created like me and I am merely a reflection of what you posses inside yourself. Not a capability, but a quality. And I am preserved eternally in that portion of you that marvels at the beauty of my existence therefore I will never pass from your thought which will live on eternally beyond your mortal life. Imitate me, preserve and expand the thought of my qualities in yourself and you will understand that your soul is a universe in it's own, a marvel studded with stars and galaxies, ever expanding if you follow the proper order of things and with good reason because that is what purpose is. To understand purpose, it is necessary to understand the soul, the elements, and the capabilities they possess. As they flow, so must we choose to follow in their path. We must choose to flow with them for that beauty to be expanded within us, a flicker of light, if preserved, expanded, becomes a sun and then a multitude of suns."

So if you ever get a flat tire, just lean back and look up and you will understand what purpose is.